The "ahh" Moment

This one goes out to the wonderful boys in apartment 124. Mostly Preston and Andrew :)

Getting ready for bed is one of the worst things in the world. It takes me a good fourty-five minutes to get ready for bed and ready for school the next day. There is so much to do. Preston, or all boys for that matter, take about five minutes max.
"I brush my teeth and hop in bed." P says.
"I brush my teeth, pull down my shorts, get other shorts on, and get in bed." The Drewster tells me.

It is completely unfair. Here is my nightly schedule:
Collect my belongings, head for bathroom.
Take off jewelry and pull my hair and bangs back.
Wait for the hot water, wash my face, and put on my zit cream.
Check for unwanted eyebrow hairs and examine myself in the mirror for a good minute.
Brush my teeth, rise my retainer, put in my retainer.
Let my hair and bangs down and take out my contacts and put my glasses on.
Bathroom break, take my face pill, head for my room.
Put clothes away, put books in backpack, get jammies on.
Charge my phone, set my alarm, and put lotion and chapstick on.
Read my scriptures (if I haven't already), say my prayers, and fluff my pillow so it is PERFECT.
Then... I hop in bed, put my feet in, pull my blankets over me, tuck my hair back, grab my softy (my blanket), lay my head down on my nice pillow and.... ahhhhh... it happens.... THE ahhhh moment...

This is the moment I look forward to on those days where I have been going non-stop all day. The satisfaction of laying down and getting to go to sleep. I forget all my worries for about three seconds and all I focus on is my comfy bed and the 8 hours of sleep I will be getting. It is the nicest feeling in the world to know that you are done for the day and that you have accomplished the things you needed to do. Its a reward for me. I am being rewarded for the non-stop, busy day I just lived through.

But this satisfaction does not happen every night. For instance, last night I went to bed at 2:00 in the morning; didn't wash my face or brush my teeth. I just changed into jammies and plopped myself on my bed after being on Facebook and thinking about stupid things for two hours. The "ahhh" moment didn't happen. It couldn't happen. I didnt have a very productive day, and I went to bed at a stupid time. The "ahhh" moment is reserved for those who have a productive and eventful day, and for those who go to bed at a decent hour.
Now lately I haven't been sleeping well for unfortunate reasons and the "ahhh" hasn't happend like it should. Instead of feeling accomplished and happy to go to bed, I have felt that it was just a necessary thing in my boring day. And even when I was in bed, I couldn't turn my brain off.

The "ahhh" moment is something I work toward and something I look forward to every night. When I do it right, it is a calming and reassuring thing that helps me get to sleep and get through the next day.

This has been applied to my life:

Marriage (hahaha). Love is a many splendid thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!
This has been applied to marriage. The "ahhh" moment will happen for me. But only if I work toward it.
Just saying that gives me the chills. When I am not focused on the goal I have set for myself (or when I'm wasting time on Facebook till 2:00 in the morning), those are the times when the "ahhh" moment can't come. I can't obtain that satisfaction of going to bed. Of course it always feels nice going to bed, but the "ahhh" moment is missing. The gratefulness of a good nights sleep isn't there. Marriage will be nice, it will be fun being married and having a family. But it won't be the same if I don't have my "ahhh" moment. Marriage to a return missionary (or a boy with a strong testimony of the gospel) in the temple IS the "ahhh" moment I need and want. Why would I waste my time doing anyting but working towards that "ahhh" moment.

This spiritual insight has been brought to you by Andraahh, and has been applied by Erin Davenport.
It is truly amazing how answers to prayers come through such random instances. I went over to 124 to have a casual conversation with those cute boys and came back with new insight to life.

the title is coming.
if life were easy it wouldn't be hard. And hard is good.
joy=salvation
I'm one step closer to my eternal companion
peace, love, and blessings